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Horohoro turned and walked into the alley towards them. Ren stood frozen as Hao was only a few feet behind him. Panick rose inside him as Horohoro got closer. He didn't know what to do, let alone what the Ainu was even planning to do. But from the cold hard stare from his eyes, he knew it couldn't be good.
"Horohoro..." Ren finally managed to say but trailed off when the bluenette walked right passed him and headed for Hao. But being unbothered by the approach, Hao smiled with a quirked brow.
"Here to show your pathetic tears again?" He asked in unhidden mockery and his smile widened. But a surprise blow wiped off the smile and Ren's eyes widened at the sudden action. Hao stood his ground on time to regain balance before falling, but another fist hit him. Another came but he saw it before getting hit. He grabbed it with one hand and with the other he threw a fist into the bluentte's gut.
"Horohoro!" Ren screamed and came to Horohoro's side. The Ainu came down on his knees as he coughed and gasped for air while holding his stomach. Ren came down next to him but then felt a chill run down his spine. He looked up at Hao who wore a displeased frown and glared at Horohoro. Ren swallowed hard as he recalled what happened just a few minutes ago in Club Patch. The power the brunette had and what he's capable of.
"I thought Ren made it clear to you yesterday?"
"I don't care. I know you did something, Hao!" Horohoro got on his feet again and clentched his teeth. Ren also got on his feet but grabbed his arm and held him back. He couldn't let the same thing happen to him... even if he has to lie again.
"I told you he didn't do anything! I told you why I left you!"
"Then prove it, Ren! Prove to me that you love him and not me!"
"Yes Ren, prove it to him." Hao added and Ren's blood ran cold. It was just a flash, but Ren saw it. Hao's eyes switched to how they were when he shot the guy at Club Patch. It's a warning and possibly even an order. The Chinese had to do something. Something that'll convice Horohoro. But what...what can he do to get him out of danger's way? Ren stood in his spot, his mind searching desperately for an answer.
"Ren?" Hao called out expectantly and Ren nodded. There was...one thing. He let go of Horohoro's arm and slowly walked up to Hao. Gomen Horohoro... Ren thought and stepped as close as he can to Hao. He closed his eyes tight, so as to picture Horohoro's face instead of seeing Hao's, as he pressed his lips on the bruenette's though he dare not deepen the kiss. A surge of pain shot through Horohoro as Hao made a slight smile with his pressed lips. It only lasted about two seconds and Ren parted away. He was only able to do it because he pictured it was Horohoro. But there was still sense that it wasn't, he only hoped this was convincing enough. Unable to look at the pain stricken face of the bluenette, he spoke while eyes on the ground.
"Was that good enough for proof? Now stop causing so much trouble and just accept the fact that we're over. Get over it and move on!" Ren hid his lies and pain with a venemous glare he was so good at making. He and Hao walked passed the Ainu as he stood stunned, crushed by everything. Hao turned around and made a triumphant smirk. But Ren held back tears and bit down on his lip, hating them at this very moment.
When the two returned to the apartment, Ren went straight to the bed and fell back on it. He let out a stressed sigh, mentally screaming at himself to hurry up and wake up from this nightmare. This is all he could do, how can he be so helpless? How can Hao make him so powerless? How could he have done that?... Because there was no other way.
"You're not tired already, are you?" Ren shot his eyes open and they widened. Hao loomed over him, shirtless with a seductive smirk. He leaned down to kiss him, but the Chinese turned his head away.
"Don't touch me, bastard!" Ren kicked Hao off and shot dagger eyes at him. Hao stood up with a frown and went towards Ren again. The Chinese tensed but stood his ground, his golden eyes shinning with fury. Though he's keeping Horohoro away, that doesn't mean he's letting Hao take total control.
"Why Ren? I thought you're over him?" Hao said and grabbed Ren by his wrist. The Chinese struggled but the brunette pinned his legs with his own and was ready with a strong hold. Hao brought his face close that Ren could feel his breath. Though pinned against the wall he turned his face as far away as he can.
"That couldn't have been your best kiss, it wasn't even that good. I bet you've done better with that idiot." One of Hao's hands held Ren's wrists while the other began to unbotton the Chinese's shirt. As he did he ran his lips down his neck and Ren shuddered. He struggled again and clentched his teeth.
"Kisama, I told you not to touch me!" Ren finally snatched his arms out of Hao's grasp and pushed him away. Hao let out a sigh and quirked a brow, obviously disappointed.
"So you're not over him." He said bluntly as Ren buttoned his shirt again. He didn't reply, but that was because he knew he didn't have to. Hao walked up to him but this time Ren got in a position of defense. Hao brought Ren close by the waist and the Chinese tried to pull away, but came to no avail. Not caring that Ren was squirming so much, Hao kept him in his hold and spoke again in a low tone.
"He's not coming, Ren. You made it clear to him. He's never coming back." Ren froze and he looked at Hao with widened eyes. A lump formed in his throat and Hao stroked his dark purple hair.
"I'm here for you, Ren. I'm the only one here for you. I'm all you have left." Ren, still in his fear stricken state shook his head, not wanting to believe Hao's words. But he knew he began to feel that it's the truth. He made the mistake to push Horohoro away and now he might really be gone. He's out of reach for any help. Ren suddenly felt isolated in an empty world. In a world without Horohoro. That he and Hao are the only ones left. Horohoro won't come back.
Horohoro... Ren thought as Hao stared into his eyes intently. He let go of Ren who had to lean back on the wall to still stand. Hao touched his paled face and turned it towards him.
"He's still in you...but you'll learn. You'll love me because I'm all you have left."
XxXx HOROHORO'S APARTMENT xXxX
Horohoro opened the door to his room and closed it behind him. But his legs didn't make it to his bed and instead he leaned back on the door and slid down to the floor. He didn't walk much and he already recovered from Hao's attack. But he felt as if all his energy's been drained. Like a hole's been drilled into him and it spread to make him hollow. He felt betrayed like a toy thrown away by his beloved owner for something better. He felt used like he was nothing from the start.
Horohoro slammed a fist on the floor and clentched his teeth. Blazing fury burned inside. It ate away at his shredded heart and it's sewn together to something else. It left him with only a hard solid shell. With only one thing. Want me to move on? Fine, I'll move on.
Chapter 6: NOT OVER YOU
Three weeks passed since the incident and neither Horohoro or Ren has seen each other. Though this is technically what Ren wanted to keep the Ainu safe, the thought that he's possibly left behind pained him more by each passing day. But there was a small bit of hope high that he was wrong. And with those hopes he still searched for a way to solve the problem without getting anyone hurt. He kept thinking as he walked next to Hao on the streets, unaware that Hao's been talking to him.
"Ren, are you listening?"
"What?" Ren blinked and turned to Hao who sighed.
"I asked if you want some lunch now."
"Oh...sure." Ren answered, trying not to show what he was really thinking. They went into the food court and each ordered their food. They sat down at a table and ate, Hao feeling an odd silence form Ren. The Chinese didn't seem to be interested in his food but more like his mind was somewhere else, which it is. Damnit, isn't there any way? Hao already barely gives me time for myself, so seeing Horohoro is way too hard. Calling would be a bad idea if he hears... I can try to see him secretly...but what if he has one of his SOF guys spying? Besides, Hao wouldn't give me the chance. Shit, why couldn't I at least have one class with Horohoro!
"You're not hungry?"
"Huh? No, I'm ok." Ren answered quickly and got to his food. Hao eyed him for a second but then began to eat again too. However, his suspicions still didn't cease. By the time he was done, Ren wasn't even half way through. Hao rested his chin on his hand and spoke in a bored tone.
"Are you still thinking about him?" Ren stopped eating and looked up at Hao. The bruenette wore a serios exprеssion, but not one that Ren would be afraid of. "I said I'm ok." Ren said firmly and kept on eating. Come on, there has to be a way...maybe, maybe I don't have to see him. If not calling either then we can still...give letters! That could be a good way as long as Hao or anyone else doesn't find out. Ren considered his idea, unaware of Hao's unceased suspicion. The bruenette closed his eyes and let out a sigh.
"When are you going to forget him and move on? He seemed to have." Ren looked up at Hao again when he heard the last sentence. Hao tilted his head to the side for Ren to look. The Chinese turned and his mouth opened a bit. Across the room at another table was Horohoro sitting with a few of his friends. One of his friends said something that Ren couldn't hear, and the bluenette burst into laughter. His other friends also laughed, holding their stomachs and wiping tears. Ren watched them for some time, unaware that his fingers were tightening their grip on his soda.
"Now why can't you laugh like that around me?" Hao asked in a false envious tone. But it's either Ren was ignoring him or couldn't hear. All he did was stare at the group or rather say stare at Horohoro. And as if he was insulted, he narrowed his eyes and turned away with a huff.
"I'm done." He said and left his food on the table.
"Where're we going?" Hao asked as he followed Ren out. Ren glanced at the window where Horohoro still talked excitedly with his friends.
"I don't care." He hissed, not even noticing the smirk plastered on Hao's face.
XxXx THAT NIGHT xXxX
Ren sat at the window sill, his golden orbs gazing at the scattered stars. For the rest of the day after lunch, he and Hao watched a movie and had Chinese food for dinner. It was all Hao's idea and he called it a date while Ren didn't call it anything. He really wouldn't have done all that if it weren't for what he saw at lunch. He only did it to get it out of his head. But of course, he couldn't and it made questions spin inside. Is he really over me that easily? Does he really not care anymore? Does he really...not love me anymore? The way Horohoro laughed, the way he smiled. He seemed to really be having fun. Of course, that's what Ren wanted. He wanted Horohoro to be happy, to have fun, to be ok. Nothing like how he was when this whole thing started. He was so hurt, confused, angry, and so persistent to take Ren back. But still, it told him that he was there in the Ainu's heart. But then today, it didn't seem like that anymore. Ren knew he shouldn't have gotten upset, but he couldn't help it. He just felt so forgotten. He was angry at himself for thinking this way but also confused at how he should feel now.
"What's with the sad face?" Ren turned to find Hao's face only about two inches away from his. He flinched and fell backwards to the open window. But before falling out, Hao caught one of his hands on time and pulled him back inside and into his arms.
"Careful now." He said and smiled. It took a second for Ren to relax and pushed Hao away. But Hao pushed him down on the couch and used his weight to keep the Chinese below him. "What's wrong, Ren? What's bothering you?" He whispered and a hand wandered below Ren's shirt while the other tried to undo it. But Ren threw a fist at him though it was dodged. Hao drew himself away and frowned. Ren returned the frown with a growl and dagger eyes.
"That bothers me! You're wrong!"
"But you were fine with it once."
"I was drunk! I didn't know who you were!"
"But you knew it wasn't Horohoro." Hao countered in a matter-of-fact tone. Ren closed his mouth and couldn't really counter back.That was true. A painful truth. But still, he didn't want anyone but Horohoro. And he didn't want to sleep with anyone else, especially Hao. It's bad enough that it happened once and that he's in this situation.
"Ever since I...came to you, you constantly tried to force me to sex. Especially after my first time at Club Patch where you hurt Horohoro. I may have left him and said I'll follow your rules, but that doesn't mean I'll let you do whatever you want with me." Ren's words dripped with spite and he narrowed his eyes. Hao listened with a calm exprеssion, but then his lips curved to a smile. He ran his finger tips down Ren's face and cupped his chin.
"I want to do it when you're sober. When you know it's me and you're not under any influence. I want to because I love you." Hao whispered and pressed his lips on Ren's. When he parted, he spoke again.
"I'm doing all this because I love you." Ren scowled at his words. And I'm doing this to protect Horohoro. Because I love him. And he... Ren's mind froze. He didn't really know how to finish the sentence. He...he..loves...but today...He...loves? or...loved? Ren's head crammed with cofusion and he clentched his teeth. Hao frowned and he locked their eyes.
"Unless you're stil thinking about him. You know if he's in the way..."
"I know that, damnit! Just shut up and get off me so I can get to sleep!" Ren yelled and shoved Hao off. He stomped to the guest room which he used for himself and locked the door. Hao sighed in disappointment but decided to give more time. Afterall, he knew it won't be long.
xXxX TO HOROHORO XxXx
Horohoro heaved a sigh and slumped down on the swing in a park. He just said goodbyes to his friends which he's been out with all day, and now it's dark with scattered stars. But what got him tired the most...was pretending. The whole situation with Ren and Hao was just too stressful, and ever since the last time he's seen them near Club Panick, he decided to really move on. If that's how Ren really feels, if he's really gone with Hao, then he's decided that he needs to forget him. And though it's been weeks, he's still in the process. Even this day, most of the purpose was the forget. To move on. But it just got harder. Each and everyday thinking of Ren became more frequent. He knew that's how much the Chinese meant to him. He couldn't just let go. But I don't mean that much to him. He let go. Horohoro thought and his grim exprеssion darkened as he stared at the ground.
"Um, Horohoro-kun? What's wrong?" Horohoro recognized that soft spoken voice. He looked up to meet eyes with a girl of short pink hair. The girl stared at him worriedly as she stood, waiting for an answer.
"Hey Tamao. I'm alright, just a little tired."
"...It's about Ren-kun, isn't it?" Tamao said and sat on the swing next to Horohoro.
"How'd you..."
"Well I go to the same college, and haven't seen the two of you together lately." This was true. Though Anna and Yoh took care of the onsen and didn't go to any college, Tamao attended the same one as Horohoro and Ren. However, lately they haven't seen each other, so they haven't kept in touch. Let alone, neither have been seeing Tamao. Horohoro suspected that there was another source.
"Did you find out in any other way?"
"Well...a lot of people know about it and i overheard gossip that you two broke up and that now Ren and Hao are together. But you know how inaccurate gossip can be so I didn't really believe it."
"Well it's true."
"Eh?" For a second Tamao accused her ears of playing tricks. But Horohoro looked at her and nodded. Both went silent, not knowing what to say. But Tamao spoke up after about five minutes in the silence.
"Why? Why did you two..."
"Things just didn't work out."
"Did you guys argue again? That's happened tons of times before, you still could've worked it out."
"It's not like that!" "G-gomen nasai." Horohoro closed his eyes and calmed down.
"Don't apologize, I shouldn't have yelled at you. It's just...things didn't work out." Tamao decided to not ask anymore and just nodded. And again, the uncomfortable silence returned. The atmosphere got gloomy, far too gloomy. So Horohoro decided to change the subject.
"So why're you out so late?"
"I had to go buy food for tonight's dinner." Tamao held up her plastic bag full of groceries. And that reminded her to look at her watch. Her eyes went wide and she jumped to her feet.
"Anna-san's going to kill me!" Horohoro walked next to her as she hurriedly walked out of the park. Before they each headed for their own home, Horohoro took Tamao's hand to stop her.
"Tamao, hey...are you busy this saturday?"
"Um, I believe not. Why?"
"I know this place with great cake. Maybe we could, you know." Tamao's cheeks turned pink and she made a shy smile.
"Sure, sounds good."
"Then it's a date! Saturday at two, right here!" Horohoro made a wide grin and headed for his house. Tamao made a small sigh and watched him go farther away. She watched him longingly. She didn't really know if it was right to agree on the date. Not when she didn't know what happened between Horohoro and Ren. And she didn't even hear what happened to them from any gossip. She really heard from Hao and wanted to hear the truth from either Horohoro or Ren. And she didn't say she heard from Hao, afraid she might cause trouble. But apparently it is true, she just doesn't know what happened. But she did know one thing...she still wasn't over him.
Horohoro turned and walked into the alley towards them. Ren stood frozen as Hao was only a few feet behind him. Panick rose inside him as Horohoro got closer. He didn't know what to do, let alone what the Ainu was even planning to do. But from the cold hard stare from his eyes, he knew it couldn't be good.
"Horohoro..." Ren finally managed to say but trailed off when the bluenette walked right passed him and headed for Hao. But being unbothered by the approach, Hao smiled with a quirked brow.
"Here to show your pathetic tears again?" He asked in unhidden mockery and his smile widened. But a surprise blow wiped off the smile and Ren's eyes widened at the sudden action. Hao stood his ground on time to regain balance before falling, but another fist hit him. Another came but he saw it before getting hit. He grabbed it with one hand and with the other he threw a fist into the bluentte's gut.
"Horohoro!" Ren screamed and came to Horohoro's side. The Ainu came down on his knees as he coughed and gasped for air while holding his stomach. Ren came down next to him but then felt a chill run down his spine. He looked up at Hao who wore a displeased frown and glared at Horohoro. Ren swallowed hard as he recalled what happened just a few minutes ago in Club Patch. The power the brunette had and what he's capable of.
"I thought Ren made it clear to you yesterday?"
"I don't care. I know you did something, Hao!" Horohoro got on his feet again and clentched his teeth. Ren also got on his feet but grabbed his arm and held him back. He couldn't let the same thing happen to him... even if he has to lie again.
"I told you he didn't do anything! I told you why I left you!"
"Then prove it, Ren! Prove to me that you love him and not me!"
"Yes Ren, prove it to him." Hao added and Ren's blood ran cold. It was just a flash, but Ren saw it. Hao's eyes switched to how they were when he shot the guy at Club Patch. It's a warning and possibly even an order. The Chinese had to do something. Something that'll convice Horohoro. But what...what can he do to get him out of danger's way? Ren stood in his spot, his mind searching desperately for an answer.
"Ren?" Hao called out expectantly and Ren nodded. There was...one thing. He let go of Horohoro's arm and slowly walked up to Hao. Gomen Horohoro... Ren thought and stepped as close as he can to Hao. He closed his eyes tight, so as to picture Horohoro's face instead of seeing Hao's, as he pressed his lips on the bruenette's though he dare not deepen the kiss. A surge of pain shot through Horohoro as Hao made a slight smile with his pressed lips. It only lasted about two seconds and Ren parted away. He was only able to do it because he pictured it was Horohoro. But there was still sense that it wasn't, he only hoped this was convincing enough. Unable to look at the pain stricken face of the bluenette, he spoke while eyes on the ground.
"Was that good enough for proof? Now stop causing so much trouble and just accept the fact that we're over. Get over it and move on!" Ren hid his lies and pain with a venemous glare he was so good at making. He and Hao walked passed the Ainu as he stood stunned, crushed by everything. Hao turned around and made a triumphant smirk. But Ren held back tears and bit down on his lip, hating them at this very moment.
When the two returned to the apartment, Ren went straight to the bed and fell back on it. He let out a stressed sigh, mentally screaming at himself to hurry up and wake up from this nightmare. This is all he could do, how can he be so helpless? How can Hao make him so powerless? How could he have done that?... Because there was no other way.
"You're not tired already, are you?" Ren shot his eyes open and they widened. Hao loomed over him, shirtless with a seductive smirk. He leaned down to kiss him, but the Chinese turned his head away.
"Don't touch me, bastard!" Ren kicked Hao off and shot dagger eyes at him. Hao stood up with a frown and went towards Ren again. The Chinese tensed but stood his ground, his golden eyes shinning with fury. Though he's keeping Horohoro away, that doesn't mean he's letting Hao take total control.
"Why Ren? I thought you're over him?" Hao said and grabbed Ren by his wrist. The Chinese struggled but the brunette pinned his legs with his own and was ready with a strong hold. Hao brought his face close that Ren could feel his breath. Though pinned against the wall he turned his face as far away as he can.
"That couldn't have been your best kiss, it wasn't even that good. I bet you've done better with that idiot." One of Hao's hands held Ren's wrists while the other began to unbotton the Chinese's shirt. As he did he ran his lips down his neck and Ren shuddered. He struggled again and clentched his teeth.
"Kisama, I told you not to touch me!" Ren finally snatched his arms out of Hao's grasp and pushed him away. Hao let out a sigh and quirked a brow, obviously disappointed.
"So you're not over him." He said bluntly as Ren buttoned his shirt again. He didn't reply, but that was because he knew he didn't have to. Hao walked up to him but this time Ren got in a position of defense. Hao brought Ren close by the waist and the Chinese tried to pull away, but came to no avail. Not caring that Ren was squirming so much, Hao kept him in his hold and spoke again in a low tone.
"He's not coming, Ren. You made it clear to him. He's never coming back." Ren froze and he looked at Hao with widened eyes. A lump formed in his throat and Hao stroked his dark purple hair.
"I'm here for you, Ren. I'm the only one here for you. I'm all you have left." Ren, still in his fear stricken state shook his head, not wanting to believe Hao's words. But he knew he began to feel that it's the truth. He made the mistake to push Horohoro away and now he might really be gone. He's out of reach for any help. Ren suddenly felt isolated in an empty world. In a world without Horohoro. That he and Hao are the only ones left. Horohoro won't come back.
Horohoro... Ren thought as Hao stared into his eyes intently. He let go of Ren who had to lean back on the wall to still stand. Hao touched his paled face and turned it towards him.
"He's still in you...but you'll learn. You'll love me because I'm all you have left."
XxXx HOROHORO'S APARTMENT xXxX
Horohoro opened the door to his room and closed it behind him. But his legs didn't make it to his bed and instead he leaned back on the door and slid down to the floor. He didn't walk much and he already recovered from Hao's attack. But he felt as if all his energy's been drained. Like a hole's been drilled into him and it spread to make him hollow. He felt betrayed like a toy thrown away by his beloved owner for something better. He felt used like he was nothing from the start.
Horohoro slammed a fist on the floor and clentched his teeth. Blazing fury burned inside. It ate away at his shredded heart and it's sewn together to something else. It left him with only a hard solid shell. With only one thing. Want me to move on? Fine, I'll move on.
Chapter 6: NOT OVER YOU
Three weeks passed since the incident and neither Horohoro or Ren has seen each other. Though this is technically what Ren wanted to keep the Ainu safe, the thought that he's possibly left behind pained him more by each passing day. But there was a small bit of hope high that he was wrong. And with those hopes he still searched for a way to solve the problem without getting anyone hurt. He kept thinking as he walked next to Hao on the streets, unaware that Hao's been talking to him.
"Ren, are you listening?"
"What?" Ren blinked and turned to Hao who sighed.
"I asked if you want some lunch now."
"Oh...sure." Ren answered, trying not to show what he was really thinking. They went into the food court and each ordered their food. They sat down at a table and ate, Hao feeling an odd silence form Ren. The Chinese didn't seem to be interested in his food but more like his mind was somewhere else, which it is. Damnit, isn't there any way? Hao already barely gives me time for myself, so seeing Horohoro is way too hard. Calling would be a bad idea if he hears... I can try to see him secretly...but what if he has one of his SOF guys spying? Besides, Hao wouldn't give me the chance. Shit, why couldn't I at least have one class with Horohoro!
"You're not hungry?"
"Huh? No, I'm ok." Ren answered quickly and got to his food. Hao eyed him for a second but then began to eat again too. However, his suspicions still didn't cease. By the time he was done, Ren wasn't even half way through. Hao rested his chin on his hand and spoke in a bored tone.
"Are you still thinking about him?" Ren stopped eating and looked up at Hao. The bruenette wore a serios exprеssion, but not one that Ren would be afraid of. "I said I'm ok." Ren said firmly and kept on eating. Come on, there has to be a way...maybe, maybe I don't have to see him. If not calling either then we can still...give letters! That could be a good way as long as Hao or anyone else doesn't find out. Ren considered his idea, unaware of Hao's unceased suspicion. The bruenette closed his eyes and let out a sigh.
"When are you going to forget him and move on? He seemed to have." Ren looked up at Hao again when he heard the last sentence. Hao tilted his head to the side for Ren to look. The Chinese turned and his mouth opened a bit. Across the room at another table was Horohoro sitting with a few of his friends. One of his friends said something that Ren couldn't hear, and the bluenette burst into laughter. His other friends also laughed, holding their stomachs and wiping tears. Ren watched them for some time, unaware that his fingers were tightening their grip on his soda.
"Now why can't you laugh like that around me?" Hao asked in a false envious tone. But it's either Ren was ignoring him or couldn't hear. All he did was stare at the group or rather say stare at Horohoro. And as if he was insulted, he narrowed his eyes and turned away with a huff.
"I'm done." He said and left his food on the table.
"Where're we going?" Hao asked as he followed Ren out. Ren glanced at the window where Horohoro still talked excitedly with his friends.
"I don't care." He hissed, not even noticing the smirk plastered on Hao's face.
XxXx THAT NIGHT xXxX
Ren sat at the window sill, his golden orbs gazing at the scattered stars. For the rest of the day after lunch, he and Hao watched a movie and had Chinese food for dinner. It was all Hao's idea and he called it a date while Ren didn't call it anything. He really wouldn't have done all that if it weren't for what he saw at lunch. He only did it to get it out of his head. But of course, he couldn't and it made questions spin inside. Is he really over me that easily? Does he really not care anymore? Does he really...not love me anymore? The way Horohoro laughed, the way he smiled. He seemed to really be having fun. Of course, that's what Ren wanted. He wanted Horohoro to be happy, to have fun, to be ok. Nothing like how he was when this whole thing started. He was so hurt, confused, angry, and so persistent to take Ren back. But still, it told him that he was there in the Ainu's heart. But then today, it didn't seem like that anymore. Ren knew he shouldn't have gotten upset, but he couldn't help it. He just felt so forgotten. He was angry at himself for thinking this way but also confused at how he should feel now.
"What's with the sad face?" Ren turned to find Hao's face only about two inches away from his. He flinched and fell backwards to the open window. But before falling out, Hao caught one of his hands on time and pulled him back inside and into his arms.
"Careful now." He said and smiled. It took a second for Ren to relax and pushed Hao away. But Hao pushed him down on the couch and used his weight to keep the Chinese below him. "What's wrong, Ren? What's bothering you?" He whispered and a hand wandered below Ren's shirt while the other tried to undo it. But Ren threw a fist at him though it was dodged. Hao drew himself away and frowned. Ren returned the frown with a growl and dagger eyes.
"That bothers me! You're wrong!"
"But you were fine with it once."
"I was drunk! I didn't know who you were!"
"But you knew it wasn't Horohoro." Hao countered in a matter-of-fact tone. Ren closed his mouth and couldn't really counter back.That was true. A painful truth. But still, he didn't want anyone but Horohoro. And he didn't want to sleep with anyone else, especially Hao. It's bad enough that it happened once and that he's in this situation.
"Ever since I...came to you, you constantly tried to force me to sex. Especially after my first time at Club Patch where you hurt Horohoro. I may have left him and said I'll follow your rules, but that doesn't mean I'll let you do whatever you want with me." Ren's words dripped with spite and he narrowed his eyes. Hao listened with a calm exprеssion, but then his lips curved to a smile. He ran his finger tips down Ren's face and cupped his chin.
"I want to do it when you're sober. When you know it's me and you're not under any influence. I want to because I love you." Hao whispered and pressed his lips on Ren's. When he parted, he spoke again.
"I'm doing all this because I love you." Ren scowled at his words. And I'm doing this to protect Horohoro. Because I love him. And he... Ren's mind froze. He didn't really know how to finish the sentence. He...he..loves...but today...He...loves? or...loved? Ren's head crammed with cofusion and he clentched his teeth. Hao frowned and he locked their eyes.
"Unless you're stil thinking about him. You know if he's in the way..."
"I know that, damnit! Just shut up and get off me so I can get to sleep!" Ren yelled and shoved Hao off. He stomped to the guest room which he used for himself and locked the door. Hao sighed in disappointment but decided to give more time. Afterall, he knew it won't be long.
xXxX TO HOROHORO XxXx
Horohoro heaved a sigh and slumped down on the swing in a park. He just said goodbyes to his friends which he's been out with all day, and now it's dark with scattered stars. But what got him tired the most...was pretending. The whole situation with Ren and Hao was just too stressful, and ever since the last time he's seen them near Club Panick, he decided to really move on. If that's how Ren really feels, if he's really gone with Hao, then he's decided that he needs to forget him. And though it's been weeks, he's still in the process. Even this day, most of the purpose was the forget. To move on. But it just got harder. Each and everyday thinking of Ren became more frequent. He knew that's how much the Chinese meant to him. He couldn't just let go. But I don't mean that much to him. He let go. Horohoro thought and his grim exprеssion darkened as he stared at the ground.
"Um, Horohoro-kun? What's wrong?" Horohoro recognized that soft spoken voice. He looked up to meet eyes with a girl of short pink hair. The girl stared at him worriedly as she stood, waiting for an answer.
"Hey Tamao. I'm alright, just a little tired."
"...It's about Ren-kun, isn't it?" Tamao said and sat on the swing next to Horohoro.
"How'd you..."
"Well I go to the same college, and haven't seen the two of you together lately." This was true. Though Anna and Yoh took care of the onsen and didn't go to any college, Tamao attended the same one as Horohoro and Ren. However, lately they haven't seen each other, so they haven't kept in touch. Let alone, neither have been seeing Tamao. Horohoro suspected that there was another source.
"Did you find out in any other way?"
"Well...a lot of people know about it and i overheard gossip that you two broke up and that now Ren and Hao are together. But you know how inaccurate gossip can be so I didn't really believe it."
"Well it's true."
"Eh?" For a second Tamao accused her ears of playing tricks. But Horohoro looked at her and nodded. Both went silent, not knowing what to say. But Tamao spoke up after about five minutes in the silence.
"Why? Why did you two..."
"Things just didn't work out."
"Did you guys argue again? That's happened tons of times before, you still could've worked it out."
"It's not like that!" "G-gomen nasai." Horohoro closed his eyes and calmed down.
"Don't apologize, I shouldn't have yelled at you. It's just...things didn't work out." Tamao decided to not ask anymore and just nodded. And again, the uncomfortable silence returned. The atmosphere got gloomy, far too gloomy. So Horohoro decided to change the subject.
"So why're you out so late?"
"I had to go buy food for tonight's dinner." Tamao held up her plastic bag full of groceries. And that reminded her to look at her watch. Her eyes went wide and she jumped to her feet.
"Anna-san's going to kill me!" Horohoro walked next to her as she hurriedly walked out of the park. Before they each headed for their own home, Horohoro took Tamao's hand to stop her.
"Tamao, hey...are you busy this saturday?"
"Um, I believe not. Why?"
"I know this place with great cake. Maybe we could, you know." Tamao's cheeks turned pink and she made a shy smile.
"Sure, sounds good."
"Then it's a date! Saturday at two, right here!" Horohoro made a wide grin and headed for his house. Tamao made a small sigh and watched him go farther away. She watched him longingly. She didn't really know if it was right to agree on the date. Not when she didn't know what happened between Horohoro and Ren. And she didn't even hear what happened to them from any gossip. She really heard from Hao and wanted to hear the truth from either Horohoro or Ren. And she didn't say she heard from Hao, afraid she might cause trouble. But apparently it is true, she just doesn't know what happened. But she did know one thing...she still wasn't over him.